January 2012
December 2011
“
So cry if you need to,
But I can’t stay to watch you.
That’s the wrong thing to do.
Touch if you need to,
But I can’t stay to hold you.
That’s the wrong thing to do.
Talk if you need to,
But I can’t stay to hear you.
That’s the wrong thing to do.
Cause you’ll say you love me,
And I’ll end up lying,
And say I love you too.
[Chorus]
But I need someone different.
You know it, oh oh you know it.
Oh oh you know it, we both know it.
I need someone different,
You know it, oh oh you know it.
Oh oh you know it, we both know it.
Something’s been missing,
you know it, oh oh she knows it.
Oooh I know it, we all know it.
I need someone different.
I guess
I’m addicted to SVU now -______-
drowning
underwater.
no one hears you scream
help.
no one there.
Need to breathe
no air.
Hurry
it’s too
late.
Trying to resurface
but the lake is frozen
over.
No escape
scream one last time.
Light
can it
be?
Rescue
from the
impossible?
Swim
for your life
before it all
disappears.
The light
growing smaller
shrinking.
Am I too
late?
Is rescue
impossible?
Who would
care?
Everything I did
seemed
wrong.
But I am
a fighter.
Drowning
underwater
no one hears you scream
help.
But I don’t give a
damn.
It’s worth a
try.
For after all
life
is a gift.
So sorry kids
but
I
am
not
that
stupid.
june 17, 2009
I was a Myspace Poet o.0
june 22, 2009
C a n c e r
Took her from me.
The most precious person to me.
My hero.
My idol.
My everything.
She told me I was priceless when they told me I was worthless.
She told me I was the best when they said I was a loser.
She kept believing in me when they had all given up on me.
But now shes g o n e.
She was strong.
Through it all.
I held her hand, that last day.
July 23, 2007.
She took her very last breath.
I was there.
Tears streaming down my face.
“Te Quiero Abuelita”
My last words said.
She could not speak.
She was unable.
She could not see.
She was disabled.
By the i l l n e s s
On her last day.
But I knew she comprehended me.
I felt that smile in her heart.
A single moment I was distraught.
I was not meant to see her die.
I walked out of the room.
D e h y d r a t i o n.
Too many tears.
I needed water.
In the kitchen.
I heard the scream.
” N O ! “
She was gone.
In a better place.
Resting.
Away from the illness.
Away from the pain.
I was not meant to see her die.
I did not see her die.
So forever she will live in me.
The beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt.
I can still feel your arms, but now I’ll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes. All that I know is I don’t know how to be something you miss.
I never thought we’d have a last kiss, never imagined we’d end like this.
Your name, forever the name on my lips.
I miss how you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something, there’s not a day I don’t miss those rude interruptions…
And I can't breathe
without you,
but I have to.
My Bad
No matter how upset I am we aren’t together anymore, I have no right to ever talk or think badly of you. You were wonderful. It was me who messed everything up.
Sadder or Worser
Some days I wonder if I’m getting sadder about losing you or if I’m just getting worse at pretending I’m fine.
I wish nothing but the best for you...
Damn this is hard.
